Saying GOODBYE

Due to a recent "invasion of privacy" as I would call it, I am being FORCED to shut my blog down. My own writing has been used against me in a negative way instead of the positive outlet that I desperately needed. Since I have oh so many friends in WA, and so many people blowing up my cell phone to spend time (or even invite/include me in their plans) you know I don't have time for this {cough cough SARCASM there for those who didn't get it :P)

Apparently freedom of speech means nothing, and I'm supposed to sit and smile on an everyday basis and do what everybody else expects of me. It's a shame too, this blog helped me somewhat sort out thoughts in my head and NEVER in a million years would I guess it would get used in the way it did. So I'll go back to the days of running everything through my mind and having no outlet for them. An advice to readers of other blogs, if you don't like what's being written on someones blog then don't read it. No on is forcing you. If it bothers/upsets/irks you then stop following it. By causing a ruckus over it you have no idea what kind of position your putting them in when your forcing them to close theirs. Sometimes this is almost the only creative outlet they have and taking it away is more painful then you would think.

Good-bye to my few (and far between) readers. You have no idea how I will miss you...

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Gobble Gobble to you all :)

30 Day Challenge Catch-up! Day's 28,29 AND 30!

Last Catch-up and we're done!!!


Day 28-Something that stresses you out
MONEY!!! There's just not enough of it for my liking lol. J/k...but for real money is my biggest worry right now. I want so many things to be accomplished and a majority of those need money to get done. School, moving into a new house, new photography equipment, Ethan's needs, etc. You get the idea. But all I can do is work my tail off and save. First thing on our list is to move within the next 6 weeks!!! 




Day 29-3 Wishes
I wish to move into our own place again
I wish to have some true family quality time
I wish to finish my degree...at a normal pace
I wish that DH finishes his degree
I wish the DH gets the recognition he deserves at work and isn't being drug along like I secretly fear they're doing
I wish my little man would stop growing up
I wish I could keep all my pets
I wish I would book some clients that aren't my friends (although I appreciate them greatly!!!)




Day 30-a picture

The current weather situation in WA :)

30 Day Challenge Catch-up! Day's 25,26 AND 27!!

Wow I blew this challenge like no other! Oh well, at least i'm finishing it off...


Day 25-Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs


1)In my head
2)Rude girl
3)DJ got us falling in love again
4)Single Ladies
5)Bottoms Up
6)Like a G6
7)Crush
8)Sexy Bitch




And thats it cause I deleted my music and that all I have right now lol

Day 26-Picture of your family

My sweet family

Day 27-Pets

We have 4 dogs of our own! Our lab, Izzy, teddy bear the yorkie, Alstott the llhaso, and Pepito the terrier/llhaso mix. It is def. a crazy world having that many pets but I love them all so much, and they mean different things to me/us :)

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 24-Something you've learned

There's a LOT that I have learned.

I've learned...

being a mom is HARD.

marriage is even harder.

money is nice, but having time to breathe in between shifts is nicer.

I should've stayed in school...the 1st time.

don't buy expensive cars that don't fit car seats if your one who wants a baby in the near future.

appreciate your alone time.

cherish your friends and family, you never know when you will be without them. 

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 23-Favorite vacation

I really don't get to vacation very often. Usually when I go out of state it has a purpose besides relaxation. In fact, in the SEVEN years me and DH have been together we really haven't taken a vacation together. We've been out of state several times but every time was for either family or work...BOO!

If I had to choose I'd say so far my favorite vacation was to Disney World when I was 18. Yeah that's right, I didn't get to go to Disney World til I was 18 frickin' years old. My mom took me to Disney Land when I was a kid but I got to tag along to FL with my sister, Sandy, and her family the summer after I graduated HS. Crazy huh?

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 22-Favorite city

Hmmm...This is a hard one. I grew up in the suburbs of one of the coolest cities out there...Chicago...but I hate it.

I love Arizona. It's just that simple. If you read my blog you know I'm itching to take another vacation there ASAP. So I'd have to say my favorite city is Scottsdale. Yes people there can be MEGA bitchy but you learn to ignore it. The nightlife is fun, the food/shopping is wonderful, and right now its the #1 best place to raise a kid! SWEET!

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 21-Picture of yourself

Uhhh is this supposed to be recent? Cause I already did one...and I don't really like the way I look right now so I'm gonna post my favorite one of myself :)

This was taken like 4 years ago at ASU by my cousin Steven. Total blast from the past. He was helping me with a submission I was supposed to do for a reality show (I never went through with it). But it was a lot of fun...

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 20-Nicknames

Momma

Mommy (my favorite)

Banana

Little One

Annis

Babe

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 19-Something you miss

If you know me in real life, this is an easy one :)

I so terribly miss Arizona!! I know I am from Chicago, I was born and raised there, but AZ is home to me.

I like it in WA, and don't regret my time here one bit, but AZ is where the heart is at <3

Other things I miss...

-My sisters (and their respective families of course!)

-My waistline

-My memory

-My grandma J (R.I.P)

-My Mercedes-Benz....sigh

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 18-Something you regret

Ouch. I don't like this one :/

There are very few things in life I regret. Like really, I don't have many regrets. I believe things happen for a reason and what mistakes we make we can learn some type of lesson from them.

However, that doesn't mean there aren't things I wish I didn't do. I have one "incident" that pretty much haunts me. No matter what has happened in life, no matter who it is that I am having the blow-out with somehow this incident ALWAYS gets thrown in my face. The sucky part is, what happened was YEARS ago and the part that should make people made doesn't...the act itself does and although I 100% understand why it's just not fair. The circumstances are never taken into consideration and it's just automatic judging. 

That's all I can divulge folks. I try hard to repress those memories as it caused a lot of havoc on many lives and hurt people when it was NEVER meant to be that way. Mistakes happen. We make dumb choices. All we can do is move on...

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 17-Something you're looking forward to

There's lots of things I'm looking forward to!

-Trying for #2

-School being done with

-My special Thanksgiving surprise for my family :D

-My work schedule to change to only 3 days a week

-Burn Notice to start in 2 weeks

-Move to our new place

-Hopefully a white Christmas

Wordless Wednesday

Some Halloween Pics :) 

I took the plunge!

For those that know me IRL, you know that since E turned one I have been "considering" adding another baby to the bunch :) As the weeks went by my consideration turned into "I WANT ONE!!!" lol. I honestly didn't think I would get baby fever this early. But now I am aching so much to have another little itty bitty baby :(

I adore E. He's more world and as much as I want another baby it freaks me out to think that I won't have as much time for him. Plus, I know mentally and financially we're just not ready for another baby. DH said a while ago that we could try when E turns 3. THREE?? Really?! I can't wait that long. I'll got nuts waiting that long.

Soooo....

After reading Lisa's confession I decided to get the guts to approach DH about re-visiting the baby subject. Last week while E was in Pre-School we decided to have some alone time and do lunch. While chatting I got super serious and asked if we could discuss some things :). He laughed and agreed and I laid it ALL out to him. I told him how I felt, how much I wanted to add to our family and asked if we could save enough money (we need to expect I will be on bedrest again at 6 months), I lose the weight I need to (I'm just not healthy right now and I know it), and get a few other things in order if would could start trying mid/late next year....and he said YES!!! 

I was shocked it was that easy. I think secretly he's been thinking about it too. He keeps making comments about how big E is getting and gets so sad when he realizes his little baby isn't so little anymore. Now, there is a lot of things I gotta do to make this happen but at least now I have some pretty heavy motivation to get it going!! Thanks Lisa for giving me the motivation to suck it up and put it out there :D

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 16-Dream house

Houses. Dream Houses.::Sigh::

Right now, I just want a house. That does not have anybody else other than Me, DH, and E occupying it...on a permanent basis. LOL.

My TRUE dream house:

-In Scottsdale, AZ

-4 to 6 bedrooms

-At least 3 bathrooms

-Tile everywhere but the bedrooms

-HUGE wooden front door

-Large vaulted cielings

-Walk-in closets in all bedrooms

-GIGANTIC kitchen

-Center Island thats big enough to actually do some cooking prep on

-Stainless Steel/Black Appliances

-Extra Large Fridge/Freezer

-Living Room And Family Room

-Large backyard with a pool/waterfall

-3 Car Garage

-Doesn't matter if its one or two stories

-1 or 2 bedroom Casita on the back land

-Laundry Room with front loading washer/dryer

My REAL dream house (the one that I WILL have one day):

-In Scottsdale, AZ

-4 bedrooms

-At least 2 bathrooms

-Tile everywhere but the bedrooms

-Walk-in closet in my bedroom

-Large kitchen

-Center Island thats big enough to actually do some cooking prep on

-Stainless Steel/Black Appliances

-Large entertaining Family/Living room

-Large backyard

-Doesn't matter if its one or two stories

-Casita on the back land

-Laundry Room with front loading washer/dryer

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 15-Bible verse

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails....And now these three main: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13:1-8a and 13 

30 Day Blog Challenge- Day 14-A picture you love

LOVE this picture by Ivy Studios. It was taken this past May and I think totally was a prelude to how E's personality would develop in the months to come. He wasn't such a goofball then but NOW is a total ham! Loves to bounce around and make silly faces. Oh and me and DH look pretty happy too :P

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 13-Goals

As far as short term goals I have a few: 

-LOSE WEIGHT. At this point I'll take any loss!

-Learn about photography

-Move out (we're working on this one!)

-Spend more quality time with DH...alone...lol

I know I've got more but I'm drawing blanks (thank-you overnight 16 hour shifts on the weeknds....). BUT here's a reminder on the LONG list of goals I am working on.

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 12- What you believe

I believe in 2nd chances. 

I believe that being a mom is the most wonderful "job" in the whole world.

I believe that as long as you learn from your mistakes and commit to not repeating them most can be forgiven.

I believe that family is more than those that are blood related.

I believe that college is better the 2nd time around :)

I believe its ok to eat dessert after every dinner.

I believe it's ok to spoil your child as long as they don't become a brat about it.

I believe manners matter.

I believe in marriage.

I believe in God.

I believe that sometimes you just need a good cry.

I believe the bad times help you appreciate the good times.

I believe that blogging is therapeutic :P

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 11- Favorite TV Shows

TV is a favorite DVR past-time of mine. I don't get to sit down and watch it very often so I have a nice little collection piling up! Here is MOST of what is saved on the tube right now: